Hello chemo new year.
And I’ve had 21 days away from chemo, from mid December to now beginning of early January.
21 days goes by fast. And yet, I am grateful for the many things that happened during break.
There are a lot of things to be thankful, grateful for to God:
- Hang outs with multiple people, so many people, so many friends!
- Catching up with old friends—like Tina—and new—like Lindsay.
- Watching friends Sarah & John get married, the Love from Him.
- Crafting Christmas gifts for my auntie and grandma and watching the joy of their tears.
- Bringing in the New Year with best friends, best dinner, Trump high school group and my own college homechuch Capetown.
- Having mulitple sleep-overs with Megs and Celeste.
- Trying to tackle giant sandwiches at Melt with Celeste haha.
- Staying up wayyy too late with the both of them, but loving every minute that lengthens the night.
- Megs visiting me at the hospital! Her willingness to serve, her faithfulness to our friendship, warms me.
- Megs and I starting and reading For the Love of God. (I’ve never read Ezra before, and in such a great light!)
- Convincing Hope to go on a smoothie run with me, and our mouth freezing over with ice-fruit-yougurt delight that matches the freezing weather outside of us.
- Running errands with Katie, day by day moments quitely accompanioning one another.
- Playing Scattergories with my roommates and their laughter.
- Sleeping at my house with roommates!
- Starting Tai Chi with my parents (oh yes!)
- Working on teachings with roommate Jenna and surprise!, over the same passage. Read, reflect, connect.
- Sip, sipping bubble tea with Hannah at one of my favorite places, the North Market.
- Skylor and I having same chemo slot again, and Searcy visiting us.
- Getting radiation news and all of that figured out.
- Sending off an awesome big brother and friend from my high school group with joy.
- Drinking tons of coffee without feeling too crazy like I do during chemo.
- Eating and enjoying food again. Digest for health. Digest for pleasure.
- Listening to pre-order of Punch Brothers over and over. Mesmorizing.
- Lighting candles. Breath in.
- Surprising roommates for birthdays.
I could go on, you see.
There is too much to be grateful for, overwhelmed for!
A small voice whispers: Gratitude keeps you grounded in the moment, reflecting back with grace, and creates an anticipicating joy for tomorrow.
Anticipiating joy for tomorrow, oh yes.
I feel it in the innermost part of me, dwelling, being knit there.
That is hope.