cells/selves.

Cancer is surprising.

As my cancer multiplies its cells, it multiplies the selves in my life. In fact, cancer is quite social.

I’ve been amazed as I stop and think about the people my cancer has introduced me to as well as deepen friendships. Although cancer seeks to destroy my life, it also is adding lives to mine:

Maria.
Skylor.
Jannette.
Heidi.
Haley.
Daniel.
Mary.
Jared.
Ashley.
Sarah.
Abby.
Larissa.

This is only just the beginning of the list—starting with fellow survivors and their friends—and if I were to include the doctors, the nurses, social workers, therapists…oh my, cancer is quite the social butterfly indeed, its nature to be wide-spreading and grasping all that it touches is, in this moment, a sad but wonderful appreciation.

Sad: because it’s truly overwhelming to see and note just how many people have either had or been affected by cancer in someway.
Wonderful: because without our cancers, we would have never in any way met and connected. This is truly miraculous. Out of death comes life.

Oh God!, you are bringing life, true experiential life into your Word in these moments, these connections, as you bring more friends to me through this suffering, our suffering!

romans 8

28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

ALL THINGS.

There is no clause here, no asterisk, no footnote leading you to the “fine print” of exceptions of cancer, suffering, death, grief, heartache, depression.

ALL THINGS.

Although I am not omniscient, I am merely finite, I am receiving small glimpses of The Omniscient Mind through the enjoyment of the people cancer has connected me with during these mere past 4 months alone! If cancer was used to only bring their connection to my life, I gladly accept. How I love their hearts! How I can’t imagine not having their friendship in my life.

Like Joseph’s response to his brothers who sold him into slavery, I respond to you cancer in the same way:

genesis 50

“You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives.”

Many lives.

I am so grateful for all the many, many lives I have been connected to because of cancer.

Oh yes, this is for good: His Good. And mine.

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